Hi! My name is Melissa Waller. I am 31 years old and live in sunny Phoenix, Arizona. I am originally from the Seattle area (specifically Bellevue, WA) and consider my hometown to be Park City, UT where most of my family currently resides. I grew up in a very athletic, adventurous, and outdoorsy family. I am thankful everyday that growing up I had the opportunity to try many different sports, social activities, traveling, and to be part of many community related organizations. My mother always use to say, "a well rounded person needs to participate in something for their mind, body, spirit, as well as have a strong sense of community". I think this is something that stuck with me through the years into adulthood and continues to challenge me to have an open mind towards activities, events, people, and places. I have always enjoyed participating in athletic activities including: completing marathons, hiking to the tips of distant mountains, and of course booze cruises (sorry, had to throw that it). I also thrive when I am a part of networking groups and non profit organizations. In fact, many of my good friends I have met originated through these avenues. Many of my friends and family will tell you I am a fireball. I am always up for a challenge, have a zest for life, and the first in line when it comes to a good time. I'm sure they could also tell you that I love my wine, entertaining, and eating fabulous food with friends and family! In early February 2009, I was diagnosed with stage 4 Adenocarcinoma (non small cell lung cancer). It is an extremely deadly disease and there is no cure. The cancer has metastasized to my bones, so at this point radiation and an operation is not an option. I will be going through Chemo over the next months in hopes that we can stop the spread of the cancer and maybe even send it to remission. Currently I am on long term disability because of the cancer diagnosis, but I am hoping to be able to go back to work once I get a feel for how my body reacts to the chemo long term. I have been employed by Belo (KTVK, KASW) as an Interactive Development Sales Manager for almost 7 years and have made a great deal of friends and connections throughout my time there. I miss my colleagues and even the challenges and stresses of the work environment. I have to say through, everyone at work has been extremely supportive sending cards, gifts, emails, calls, and visits to the hospital. My family and friends have been absolutely amazing throughout this process. They have really stepped up to make sure that I have had support and help through this initial process. Normally, I am a very independent, self sufficient person. This cancer has completely turned my life inside out. Everyday things that defined me before are completely different. I feel like the same person, but yet at the same time I have had to challenge myself on my values, religious views, goals, and even emotional stability. I am still the same fireball and tend to give this my all. Hopefully along the way, I will still be living life in a different way continuing to do the things that were so important in shaping who I am today.
Editor's Note: Melissa Waller passed away on November 25, 2010
I’ve been thinking. I have gone to tons of weddings, engagement parties, bachelorette parties and baby showers for friends. I don’t know if I will have a chance to have this in my future. ...
April 29, 2010 - 8:59am
Once again it’s in the middle of the night and I am downstairs by the pool trying to get whatever wi-fi is available. It’s so annoying because I keep trying to watch Prison Break and the damn ...
April 29, 2010 - 8:56am
It’s 2:30 a.m. and I am sitting by the pool listening to the ocean, worried that I am being eaten alive by mosquitos. I am trying to take advantage of the wi-fi here on the beach since my parents ...
April 29, 2010 - 8:49am
Today it rained pretty much the entire day. I was exhausted from traveling yesterday, so I ended up resting a good majority of the day. Kathy went out to explore the resort (which is huge) and ...
April 20, 2010 - 8:35am
After a whole day of traveling, Kathy and I finally made it to the Mayan Riveria. We had some complications with the plane in Dallas, so we were delayed a few hours. It was nothing that a little ...
April 20, 2010 - 8:29am
Christine and I went to the Cancer Treatment Centers of America (CTCA) to talk to the doctors today and get more in depth information on the status. There was alot of doc talk, but the main thing ...
April 20, 2010 - 8:23am
I’m finally home! The flight on Air New Zealand this time was much better. I think the plane was a 757. First class had these great seats that were situated diagonally so each person could ...
April 1, 2010 - 7:53am
Aaaah, back to reality. It feels strange to be back in Phoenix. The weather right now is absolutely perfect, but ever since I got back from New Zealand I have been thinking of where I want to ...
April 1, 2010 - 7:48am
Today is the last day of traveling. I am sitting at the VIP lounge for New Zealand; we’ve been here now for hours. Unfortunately, we got in around noon and Carol had to be at the airport by 5 p.m. ...
March 30, 2010 - 8:32am
This morning I was supposed to be landing on a glacier. The pilot called at 8 a.m. for a weather check and unfortunately he said we would have to wait. He would call back around noon. It’s now ...
March 26, 2010 - 9:29am
Queenstown is everything I thought it would be and better. The hotel itself is nothing to brag about, but the views from the lobby are outstanding. We arrived late last night to the bustling ...
March 26, 2010 - 9:16am
Today we are leaving to head back to New Zealand. Our flight doesn’t leave until tonight so we are thinking of doing a cruise along the harbor.
Yesterday we took a ferry to Manly Beach. The ...
March 26, 2010 - 9:05am
Sydney seems quite different than New Zealand so far. I think Carol and I both agree that we like the energy of Sydney better than Auckland. This place seems to have the best of both worlds, the ...
March 26, 2010 - 8:59am
It was time to leave Auckland and head to our next destination, Sydney. Unfortunately, this happened at 4 a.m.! We were both exhausted by the time we got to our hotel in Sydney.
Auckland ...
March 26, 2010 - 8:52am
Today was our first full day in Auckland, New Zealand. We arrived yesterday morning and spent the day roaming the city shopping and getting our bearings.
Auckland is no different than any ...
March 25, 2010 - 9:04am
Saturday night Tera and I attended the annual Jewel Ball. The Jewel Ball is put on by the American Cancer Society. Molly and Bob were the co-chairs of the event. They did a really nice job on ...
March 25, 2010 - 8:55am
After talking and planning for so long, I am finally on my way to New Zealand and Australia! My friend Carol, who I grew up with in Seattle, is meeting me there. I am sitting in the Honolulu ...
March 25, 2010 - 8:52am
Only a few more days until I leave for New Zealand! I can’t believe this is finally happening. I don’t think it has hit me yet and it probably won’t until I am on the plane. My brother-in-law is ...
March 25, 2010 - 8:45am
For some reason I woke up this morning feeling really scared. I have never felt like this before, but it was a really strange feeling. I’m not sure what I was feeling scared about, and I am ...
March 11, 2010 - 8:23am
Today was another full day of running around. For someone who is not currently working, I seem to have a lot going on. Somehow my days fill and seem to fly by.
I went to pilates class this ...
February 26, 2010 - 8:33am
Last night was the first time that I had been back to Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) in a very long time. I had a feeling that something was up for the past week.
The other night ...
February 24, 2010 - 10:01am
I received an email late last night from someone that I have been corresponding with that has cancer. She was friends with another girl I have been talking with Julie.
Julie’s brother ...
February 24, 2010 - 9:55am
Nause. I hate this feeling! I didn’t get much sleep last night, in fact I woke up at 4:30 a.m. I think I fell back asleep around 8 a.m. or so and shortly after, the painter showed up so sleepy ...
February 24, 2010 - 9:42am
I can’t believe how things unravel sometimes. Just a week ago it seems like time was at a standstill and moving so slowly. I found out that an old friend is coming into town late this week. Last ...
February 22, 2010 - 3:09pm
Today is Wednesday. I haven’t left the house except to run an errand here and there since Friday. Every morning I have been feeling tired and nauseous. I usually start feeling better in the late ...
January 22, 2010 - 1:56pm
Yesterday I had my petscan and ultrasound. The petscan shows the progression or regression of the cancer. I had asked the doc to put in an order for an ultrasound for my legs to see if the blood ...
January 15, 2010 - 8:04am
This has been one of the most productive weeks that I have had in a long time. I had chemo (Erbitux) this week and thankfully it didn’t affect me too much. I decided to take control of this ...
January 11, 2010 - 8:14am
For some reason yesterday I started having panic attacks. I was staying at a hotel and suddenly I woke up with the feeling of complete restlessness. It almost feels like restless leg syndrome, but ...
January 5, 2010 - 7:46am
Here I am back at Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA). I checked into the Hotel Highland yesterday because after staying at the Montelucia for days and days, my pocketbook was starting to ...
January 4, 2010 - 7:49am
Welcome 2010! It feels so strange to say that. I cannot believe a whole year has gone by. I still feel like I am back in 2008. This year just breezed by. I guess time flies when you spend time in ...
January 4, 2010 - 7:44am
Whew! I made it through the past couple of weeks with no major problems. The bathroom remodel is moving along. I went by the house last night after being gone for a week in Park City.
The house ...
December 30, 2009 - 7:52am
Yeah! This week is finally over and now I will be on my way to Park City tomorrow. The surgery went great…I barely even had any pain the past few days. The house remodel is under control and ...
December 23, 2009 - 8:07am
Ok this is now a week later and my face still has this damn rash! It’s a little on my neck, too. It almost looks like I’m a teenager going through puberty. To make matters worse, the right eye ...
December 16, 2009 - 7:05am
It is really pathetic that I know all of the reality trash TV and the “characters.” I’ve now gotten addicted to shows such as “Tough Love,” “Intervention,” “Keeping up with the Kardashians,” ...
December 14, 2009 - 8:52am
I woke up this morning to my right eye almost glued shut. I had an allergic reaction to something and my eye is super puffy. This use to happen all the time last year and I thought it was because ...
December 14, 2009 - 8:43am
A couple of people have been pointing out that I have not been writing lately. I didn’t realize how long it had been since I had last written. I guess I just haven’t felt motivated lately, or just ...
December 8, 2009 - 7:29am
Damn-another night of sleeping with the light on and up late on the computer.
Last night I fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up I was practically naked and confused as to what had happened ...
December 1, 2009 - 7:29am
I am so excited for this coming Thanksgiving! I decided to make the best of the rental house situation and have some people over on Tuesday before my family comes in Wednesday night. I figured ...
November 23, 2009 - 8:58am
6:30am on a Saturday morning. What am I doing up?
I feel horrible this morning! This is not a good start to the day. I already feel my whole body aching and I feel really bloated today. I had a ...
November 16, 2009 - 7:35am
Today is day three after chemo…I think.
I woke up to my doorbell ringing. I totally forgot that I had a meeting with a lady who was coming over to help consult me on the bathroom remodel. ...
November 12, 2009 - 7:22am
Today was a busy day at the Cancer Treatment Centers.
I spent the morning getting acupuncture and seeing various doctors. I was informed a couple of weeks ago that my oncologist is taking a ...
November 9, 2009 - 7:12am
Sometimes I feel so lucky and thankful for what I have and the status of my health. It seems that there is always someone that is going through the same thing or maybe even worse.
Last week my ...
November 2, 2009 - 7:35am
I am going on my fourth night in a row with no sleep. I have been finally going to bed around 4am each day. The strange thing is that I don’t feel as tired as I should during the day. Time seems ...
October 30, 2009 - 7:32am
It’s 3:30am and once again can’t sleep. Steve (brother in law) and I went to CTCA last night because I started having horrible stomach pain. We were there until 2 a.m. and then finally came home ...
October 27, 2009 - 7:22am
I was finally discharged from CTCA this afternoon! I even drove myself home for the first time. I haven’t gotten much sleep the past few days (my fault) so I was a little tired from driving, but ...
October 26, 2009 - 7:16am
Today is day 2 after chemo. Yesterday I had my third official round of Taxotere and Ulimpta infusion. This is the first official chemo that has shown on the Petscan to be working to stop the ...
October 23, 2009 - 7:23am
Following are notes from caregiver Deborah Meyers on her stay with me.
Care Giver notes for Monday October 12 thru Thursday October 15
Deborah Myers
I arrived at the airport this morning as ...
October 22, 2009 - 7:26am
Another day of nausea…it seems to be the norm now. At least I was finally able to go to the bathroom. I have been in a constant state of constipation for the past few days and I was starting to ...
October 20, 2009 - 7:47am
Another night of little rest…maybe because we went to bed too early and I took several naps today. I have been having a hard time staying asleep during the night. It’s really annoying.
I have ...
October 19, 2009 - 7:47am
Thursday Oct. 1, 2009
Melissa picked me up from the airport at 1:30 and we headed back home to her house. Melissa was excited to be out of Cancer Treatment Center, but cautious of increasing back ...
October 13, 2009 - 7:42am