I hate this! I am soooo bored right now. This day has been a complete waste, slipping in and out of dreamland.

I am sick of being in the hospital and all I want to do is run as far away from here as possible. Regardless, I feel like I have plenty over the next months. So far this year we have been throwing around the idea of doing Thanksgiving here in Phoenix and renting a big house. Who knows how I will b feeling around that time and I don’t want to make anymore place tickets just to not use them. U.S. Air stopped accepting doctor's notes two years ago. One has to be fully hospitalized in order to get a full refund. Each year Wes and I go back to PC, so it will be nice for a change to have guests here! I just can’t believe it will be 2010 soon! Time sure does fly the older you get.

Today I have been a little cranky. I just feel like we are going around and around in circles sometimes. Will there ever be any truly good news? Sometimes I don’t think it's good for me to be by myself. I have too much time to think and my mind starts racing.