How to remove the fear of pain of first intercourse?

I feel like I'm in the same boat as a lot of you, but then I also feel like I've taken my situation way too far and not done anything. I've been married for over three years and been with my husband for almost 7 years,and yes we have tried it but it seems every time I just get scared and push away and then he yells and gets angry. I don't know what the cause of my fear is. It's gotten so bad to the point that I don't even want to try anymore because of fear that he will get mad, yell at me and threaten to leave. I feel like it's a psychological thing for me but I also fear that if I talk to someone they will judge me and make me feel just as horrible. I don't know what to do because I feel like I have put so much into this relationship and am just throwing it away. I don't even know who I could talk to, I feel like I'm just dumb and should accept the fact that I could possibly be alone for the rest of my life. Which is horrible to think about because I'm under 30.

So is been a while that I have not been in here. Before I wrote that I couldnt have sex. I have been with my husband with 2 years and our marriage it was falling apart. I try to search everything, like how to numb myself, or ways to not feel the pain. I was scared, thats how I finish in this page. Trying to find answers like everyone. This is a real issue, a real problem. I though that I was alone, and no. When I came in here I came to find answers, and I did. I found therapy near me. Im christian, I believe in God and all of that. I found answers, and finally I did after 8 months of therapy. I was afraid of the pain, but is not bad it all. One thing I can say is that you need to relax, and talk to your partner tell him that you want to go slow. Thats what I did. When I first did it, I had a cup of red wine, because I was really afraid. But... we did it. And if I did it, you can do it also. Right now we are going slow but is getting better than the first time for sure. You just really need to love your partner and he needs to be very patient because is not easy. Good luck!!!

Hi..I have read all 9 pages of this thread & thought its best to talk out my feelings with u instead of just reading what others are going through.. I have been married for 1.8 years now & no successful intercourse despite countless attempts ! Now we are at a point that we try once a month or sometimes even once in two months to see if Im ready or not but I think this has worsen the problem ! I love my husband & he loves me back but we are unable to make this connection just because of my anxiety and fear. I push him, start shouting, cant breath properly when he's about to go inside & I secretly hate myself afterwards ! We have been to gynaecologist. I couldnt even let her touch me & told her to examine some other day & then I never went back ! I dont have any history of abuse & have tried pretty much all lubricants ky, olive oil, vaseline, baby lotion even lidocaine for numbness plus painkiller and muscle relaxant before attempting intercourse, nothing has worked successfully ! My husband has been patient throughout but now im tired ! I'm really looking fwd to some motivating words, tips & suggestions to get me through this.

i'm newly married but i always keep myself away from being intercourse with my husband. He sometimes angry with me but i'm totally helpless. Whenever we proceed for intercourse but i feel fear of pain and resist him doing intercourse. Please help me so that i can remove this tension and keep my husband happy.