I completely understand what you are going through. My dad once told me, while going through this. You have to take care of yourself first, so you can take care of your kids. I understood it, and still do. My answer was, But who is gonna take care of them while I am trying to get better. At that time my husband was working out of town alot, and both of my kids didn't have a license or a car. I had to get my mom to come from out of town to help or my mother n law, or their friends parents. It's tuff, and it hurts, and sad, and frustrating, and so much more. We have to do what we have to do to get better. It's been very hard putting my family to the side to get better. But then I resent my family for not supporting me through all of this. So it's a double edge sword. We can't win either way.