Thank you for this article. As a lifelong sufferer of depression, I was able to relate to much of what I read. People who do not suffer with depression do not understand exactly what it entails and how much it affects one's life. I get the impression that people w depression are viewed as someone who sits around crying all the time and feeling sorry for themselves. The past 6 months have been the worst for me with the depression, even though I have been living w this for decades. Even I did not realize how bad it could get until recently. I have days when I literally "cannot" function mentally or physically. Having Fibromyalgia also for the past 15 yrs. does not help the depression either. My cognitive abilities have been affected lately; memory, speech. I've been becoming more isolated lately and will go a week at a time without leaving my house, will not answer the phone for people I used to enjoy talking to, just unplug it some days so I don't have to hear it ring. On really bad days, cannot keep a thought straight in my head and am practically catatonic. The feeling of hopelessness and despair is literally overwhelming at times. I do believe suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness because it hurts so many who do love us, but to be quite frank, I am just so tired emotionally and physically lately, a fatal disease at this point would be a blessing because I just don't want to live another 20-30 yrs. feeling this way, I am 45 now. I am also going through menopause which I'm sure doesn't help matters any. I was going to a psychologist for talk therapy for over a year and that seemed to help somewhat, but could not afford the weekly co-pays any longer, so stopped going. It may be time to begin again as this seems to be getting worst the past few months. Again, thank you for the informative article.
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Thank you for this article. As a lifelong sufferer of depression, I was able to relate to much of what I read. People who do not suffer with depression do not understand exactly what it entails and how much it affects one's life. I get the impression that people w depression are viewed as someone who sits around crying all the time and feeling sorry for themselves. The past 6 months have been the worst for me with the depression, even though I have been living w this for decades. Even I did not realize how bad it could get until recently. I have days when I literally "cannot" function mentally or physically. Having Fibromyalgia also for the past 15 yrs. does not help the depression either. My cognitive abilities have been affected lately; memory, speech. I've been becoming more isolated lately and will go a week at a time without leaving my house, will not answer the phone for people I used to enjoy talking to, just unplug it some days so I don't have to hear it ring. On really bad days, cannot keep a thought straight in my head and am practically catatonic. The feeling of hopelessness and despair is literally overwhelming at times. I do believe suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness because it hurts so many who do love us, but to be quite frank, I am just so tired emotionally and physically lately, a fatal disease at this point would be a blessing because I just don't want to live another 20-30 yrs. feeling this way, I am 45 now. I am also going through menopause which I'm sure doesn't help matters any. I was going to a psychologist for talk therapy for over a year and that seemed to help somewhat, but could not afford the weekly co-pays any longer, so stopped going. It may be time to begin again as this seems to be getting worst the past few months. Again, thank you for the informative article.
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