Married male, 63. Wife "cut me off" more than 17 years ago. No birthday sex, no valentines sex, no anniversary sex, nothing. I cannot live without it--so I masturbate at least once a day. She "catches me" at it every 3 or 4 years and gets very mad--usually a couple weeks without speaking. I have suggested we go see a counselor, that is also turned down immediately. I see no point in going to counseling on my own. My only sex life is me and internet porn--and that is starting to not be very satisfying. I long for the tough of and to touch a women.