I guess I'd have to say, there's a difference between recovery and recovered. I'm not recovered. I still can fall off the end of the world when I do too much, or eat too much of the wrong thing.
We had new parts put on our furnace the other day and for the first day I had a head fog and some neurological symptoms that haven't appeared in some time. Symptoms are gone now, but it was a reminder.
I am getting over a flare-up of tendinitis that I think is connected to CFS ... I'm recovering from this flareup. Expecting it to eventually be gone. Will I go through it again? I don't know. And I guess I look at the whole recovery from CFS in somewhat the same light.
I don't know if I'll have another major crash again. It could happen. Maybe even one that takes me down for good. But, the future is the future. No telling what's up there.
When I talk about my recovery, it's an ongoing thing. It's been continuing -- with some relapses -- for 3 yrs, almost 4 yrs now. My expectation is that it will continue to happen. Could I be wrong? Yep. But like I said, I don't know what the future holds, I can only go by how things seem now, and as I look back on the past.
I might never know if I am "recovered". I might be living completely well for a period of time, and it might come to an end with an almighty crash. But for the present, I look at it as being in recovery, because I also know that it's quite possible that eventually this may be all behind me for good.
That's about the best I can do by way of clarifying. Hope what I'm trying to say is coming across.
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Laura,
Good question.
I guess I'd have to say, there's a difference between recovery and recovered. I'm not recovered. I still can fall off the end of the world when I do too much, or eat too much of the wrong thing.
We had new parts put on our furnace the other day and for the first day I had a head fog and some neurological symptoms that haven't appeared in some time. Symptoms are gone now, but it was a reminder.
I am getting over a flare-up of tendinitis that I think is connected to CFS ... I'm recovering from this flareup. Expecting it to eventually be gone. Will I go through it again? I don't know. And I guess I look at the whole recovery from CFS in somewhat the same light.
I don't know if I'll have another major crash again. It could happen. Maybe even one that takes me down for good. But, the future is the future. No telling what's up there.
When I talk about my recovery, it's an ongoing thing. It's been continuing -- with some relapses -- for 3 yrs, almost 4 yrs now. My expectation is that it will continue to happen. Could I be wrong? Yep. But like I said, I don't know what the future holds, I can only go by how things seem now, and as I look back on the past.
I might never know if I am "recovered". I might be living completely well for a period of time, and it might come to an end with an almighty crash. But for the present, I look at it as being in recovery, because I also know that it's quite possible that eventually this may be all behind me for good.
That's about the best I can do by way of clarifying. Hope what I'm trying to say is coming across.
Thanks for asking the question.
December 19, 2010 - 2:23pmThis Comment
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