Hi love999 - OK, you're saying you don't believe you have depression, don't want to go to counseling, and you think your situation is caused by a hormonal imbalance. No, I'm not going to tell you what I think is wrong with you and what you should do. I am going to suggest, however, that if your gut is telling you it's a hormone problem then you should consider getting diagnostic tests to determine if that's the problem. A gynecologist can help you, or an endrocrinologist, depending on whether you think the issues are related to your menstrual cycles or to your overall health.
Here is a link to information from the Hormone Foundation which you may find useful. The organization states "The endocrine system is a complex group of glands that helps to control reproduction, metabolism, growth and development through substances called hormones. It also controls the way you respond to your surroundings and provides the proper amount of energy your body needs to function. Sometimes the glands of the endocrine system are impaired and can cause a hormone imbalance. This hormone imbalance (or endocrine disease/condition) can affect your health in many ways, and some endocrine system diseases/conditions are more serious than others."
Good luck you you, and I hope you will let us know what you decide to do, and update us on your progress. Thanks for writing! Pat