I am a woman, who has a very healthy sexual appetite (would love to have sex at least once a day). I watch porn with my boyfriend, I give many blowjobs & handjobs, I spice things up.
I am 21, he is 42. I do everything he wants me to, even anal when I am not a big fan of it. I dress up for him & I am always clean & ready to go. I never say no & am always wanting to do something to please him. I please him without even requesting reciprocation. I also can't stand that he masturbates to porn. I would much rather pleasure him, then have him on the computer stroking off.
Late last night I gave him a blow job, he came, I swallowed, he fell asleep. (As usual, I know this happens... I don't expect different.) But, this morning he wakes up & looks at porn right away & masturbates. I have told him before I would rather suck or stroke him off, then for him to do this. But he still does it.
He has admitted to having an addiction to porn. He'll do it again, I'll feel hurt (I'm very emotional, always have been.) I'll cry. He'll apologize & won't do it for a while. He'll be good & then he'll start doing it again, like he forgot we had the conversation.
80% if not more of our sex life revolves around him & his needs. I don't mind pleasing him. I actually enjoy doing everything for him, but when he won't take the time to please me, & instead pleases himself when he has a ready & willing partner, I feel hurt.
So for those who say, that she needs to "spice it up" that's not always the case. Being 22 years younger then him, with a box full of toys, rope, handcuffs, lube, who is always willing & ready whenever he needs me, I know that we don't need anymore spice. I swallow, I do anal, I am bisexual, I am experimental & adventurous.
I can't really answer the above question, but I can say that your not alone. I myself am trying to figure things out. I love this man with all of my heart & I never want to see my life without him in it. But something has to change a little bit because I can't stand feeling this way.
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I am a woman, who has a very healthy sexual appetite (would love to have sex at least once a day). I watch porn with my boyfriend, I give many blowjobs & handjobs, I spice things up.
I am 21, he is 42. I do everything he wants me to, even anal when I am not a big fan of it. I dress up for him & I am always clean & ready to go. I never say no & am always wanting to do something to please him. I please him without even requesting reciprocation. I also can't stand that he masturbates to porn. I would much rather pleasure him, then have him on the computer stroking off.
Late last night I gave him a blow job, he came, I swallowed, he fell asleep. (As usual, I know this happens... I don't expect different.) But, this morning he wakes up & looks at porn right away & masturbates. I have told him before I would rather suck or stroke him off, then for him to do this. But he still does it.
He has admitted to having an addiction to porn. He'll do it again, I'll feel hurt (I'm very emotional, always have been.) I'll cry. He'll apologize & won't do it for a while. He'll be good & then he'll start doing it again, like he forgot we had the conversation.
80% if not more of our sex life revolves around him & his needs. I don't mind pleasing him. I actually enjoy doing everything for him, but when he won't take the time to please me, & instead pleases himself when he has a ready & willing partner, I feel hurt.
So for those who say, that she needs to "spice it up" that's not always the case. Being 22 years younger then him, with a box full of toys, rope, handcuffs, lube, who is always willing & ready whenever he needs me, I know that we don't need anymore spice. I swallow, I do anal, I am bisexual, I am experimental & adventurous.
I can't really answer the above question, but I can say that your not alone. I myself am trying to figure things out. I love this man with all of my heart & I never want to see my life without him in it. But something has to change a little bit because I can't stand feeling this way.
June 15, 2010 - 6:52amThis Comment
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