I have an extreme case of tuberous breast. I am 22 years old and have unfortunately been mocked because of the size and shape of my breasts since i was 14. It all started in gym class where i accidentally let my swimsuit slip and was teased for years. After that, it was the first boyfriend i had who broke up with me the day after he saw my breasts and called me a freak. Over the years, i have had comments both spiteful and some in a light hearted way (mostly about the sagging, large droopy areolas and mostly about the size - can't even fit into an 8A bra) , but they all really hurt the same way. I can't wear bras/swimsuits without padding and i really hesitate to take my top off during sex - this upsets me a lot because i know that i am a confident person and it kills me that as soon as take my top off all my confidence is gone, i am shy, distant and constantly trying to cover my breasts - men notice as well and it just makes the whole experience of sex even more awkward and eventually the relationship awkward. I tell myself this is why most men don't stick around much long after sex.
I always tell myself that i won't feel the pressure of society telling me what is beautiful and what is not and it is hard. Some days i feel good about myself and convince myself my breasts aren't that bad, then other days i just cry and wonder why i have this "deformity" (it doesn't help when it's called this either as it reaffirms i am not normal). I don't think that i will ever get surgery. It's a personal choice and i don't condemn anyone who wants it done because it really depends on the person, situation and whether it is right for you. On the other hand, i don't always want to feel this way about myself. I don't want to look in the mirror and see what i see. For now, i don't really see a solution or a change in the future and instead i am focusing on accepting what i have and trying to remember that individuality equals beauty (even though its hard sometimes : )). I just wanted to comment to share my experiences with women who are like me and good luck with whichever route you all take.
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I have an extreme case of tuberous breast. I am 22 years old and have unfortunately been mocked because of the size and shape of my breasts since i was 14. It all started in gym class where i accidentally let my swimsuit slip and was teased for years. After that, it was the first boyfriend i had who broke up with me the day after he saw my breasts and called me a freak. Over the years, i have had comments both spiteful and some in a light hearted way (mostly about the sagging, large droopy areolas and mostly about the size - can't even fit into an 8A bra) , but they all really hurt the same way. I can't wear bras/swimsuits without padding and i really hesitate to take my top off during sex - this upsets me a lot because i know that i am a confident person and it kills me that as soon as take my top off all my confidence is gone, i am shy, distant and constantly trying to cover my breasts - men notice as well and it just makes the whole experience of sex even more awkward and eventually the relationship awkward. I tell myself this is why most men don't stick around much long after sex.
I always tell myself that i won't feel the pressure of society telling me what is beautiful and what is not and it is hard. Some days i feel good about myself and convince myself my breasts aren't that bad, then other days i just cry and wonder why i have this "deformity" (it doesn't help when it's called this either as it reaffirms i am not normal). I don't think that i will ever get surgery. It's a personal choice and i don't condemn anyone who wants it done because it really depends on the person, situation and whether it is right for you. On the other hand, i don't always want to feel this way about myself. I don't want to look in the mirror and see what i see. For now, i don't really see a solution or a change in the future and instead i am focusing on accepting what i have and trying to remember that individuality equals beauty (even though its hard sometimes : )). I just wanted to comment to share my experiences with women who are like me and good luck with whichever route you all take.
July 11, 2010 - 7:10amThis Comment
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