Such great stories here...I just turned 45 and I find myself fixated on the thought of having another baby. I have 4 wonderful, healthy children- 2 boys & 2 girls, oldest is 19, youngest is 9. All my pregnancies were pretty good, though I did have terrible depression after my last one. I took that as a sign that my family was complete! SO why am I feeling this way now? Well, I've given it much thought. First, I HATE getting older and babies made me feel young and vibrant. Second, I miss my kids being little and it's true that time goes by too fast. Third, I love big families and all I ever wanted to be was a Mom, it's what I'm best at. SO, the questions for myself are: Am I looking at another baby to fill my fear of aging? Am I grasping onto the past and my youth and not wanting to let go?? Am I lonely inside?? Gosh...I do love the newness, the hope, the happiness and possibilities a new life brings...I cry when I think back on the days each of my babies were born. I'm envious everytime I hear of friends/family having a new baby. I'm sure I'm not the only 45 year old woman who feels this way. Right?
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Such great stories here...I just turned 45 and I find myself fixated on the thought of having another baby. I have 4 wonderful, healthy children- 2 boys & 2 girls, oldest is 19, youngest is 9. All my pregnancies were pretty good, though I did have terrible depression after my last one. I took that as a sign that my family was complete! SO why am I feeling this way now? Well, I've given it much thought. First, I HATE getting older and babies made me feel young and vibrant. Second, I miss my kids being little and it's true that time goes by too fast. Third, I love big families and all I ever wanted to be was a Mom, it's what I'm best at. SO, the questions for myself are: Am I looking at another baby to fill my fear of aging? Am I grasping onto the past and my youth and not wanting to let go?? Am I lonely inside?? Gosh...I do love the newness, the hope, the happiness and possibilities a new life brings...I cry when I think back on the days each of my babies were born. I'm envious everytime I hear of friends/family having a new baby. I'm sure I'm not the only 45 year old woman who feels this way. Right?
November 19, 2009 - 4:07amThis Comment
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