You know, I have no idea what to say except all of these things are the way I've been feeling. I have no self esteem left. I feel as you said,"About 2 inches tall" at times. I've tried to get him to go to therapy with me. He refuses. He says he tried that with his first wife and it didn't work. Whenever I try to talk with him about the issue we end up arguing. I have no idea what to do anymore.