I know you are probably going to think I am stupid, crazy, and should kill myself. But I know for a fact I have Munscheans Syndrome. I am 14. I have been wanting to seek attention my wole life. I am adopted and dont have any depression or mental issues at all except for maybe suicide thoughts here and there. I have been in and out of the ER my whole life. For some reason, I dont know what or why, I love doctors. I am obsessed with childhood cancer. I lie to my best friends saying I have had other friends with cancer that died. I make up stories that are somewhat off of other kids cancer stories. I have even told my friends I have had leukemia. I want cancer really really bad. I even bruise myself and etc to make it look as if I have the sysmtoms of the cancer I want. I google and research a lot. I have a "small" medical condition where I bleed internally and I have had repeated CT scans, bloodwork, and x-rays to maybe cure me. No results. But I really want cancer. My folks dont even know any of this. I am very consisant with stories. Maybe I will mess up here and there. I know I have issues, I just cant cure it myself because I am always at the hospital, wether I like it or not. I may be good with not harming myself to go to the hospital, but every night, I dream that I will get cancer and attention. I will not go to the doctor for this. My parents will think I'm crazy and when I'm really in pain, they wont believe me. What do I do?
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I know you are probably going to think I am stupid, crazy, and should kill myself. But I know for a fact I have Munscheans Syndrome. I am 14. I have been wanting to seek attention my wole life. I am adopted and dont have any depression or mental issues at all except for maybe suicide thoughts here and there. I have been in and out of the ER my whole life. For some reason, I dont know what or why, I love doctors. I am obsessed with childhood cancer. I lie to my best friends saying I have had other friends with cancer that died. I make up stories that are somewhat off of other kids cancer stories. I have even told my friends I have had leukemia. I want cancer really really bad. I even bruise myself and etc to make it look as if I have the sysmtoms of the cancer I want. I google and research a lot. I have a "small" medical condition where I bleed internally and I have had repeated CT scans, bloodwork, and x-rays to maybe cure me. No results. But I really want cancer. My folks dont even know any of this. I am very consisant with stories. Maybe I will mess up here and there. I know I have issues, I just cant cure it myself because I am always at the hospital, wether I like it or not. I may be good with not harming myself to go to the hospital, but every night, I dream that I will get cancer and attention. I will not go to the doctor for this. My parents will think I'm crazy and when I'm really in pain, they wont believe me. What do I do?
January 2, 2013 - 11:20pmThis Comment
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