I wrote up above. My husband has MS and is abusive. I know what its like to be sad and depressed. However, as hard as it is I get up and go every day no matter how bad I want to stay in bed. I work two jobs (he has not worked in 11 years) and I excercise religiously. I could not be here without a release. I have chosen to be good to my body and help my mind as much as possible. I can't say that exercise solves my problems or erases my sadness, but it works wonders for my soul and helps keep me thinking as positive as I can.
I understand the woman above when she says that her spouse has been "good" for two weeks. My house runs like that. We live for the good days or weeks. Unfortunately, I have been doing this 11 years and they never last. But, I do live those moments to the fullest. However, my children don't remember the man I married. They only know the man he is today. They can't forgive or understand like I have conditioned myself to do. When my husband gets angry he doesnt have control over his actions; he slams doors, yells, swears, calls me names and the children hear him. He doesnt have the capacity to think before he speaks when he is enraged. He also doesn't care at the time if they hear. He also says mean things about them and sometimes to them. He acts crazy and totally out of control. He has been in counseling forever! We have tried couples counseling a little here and there. He also is totally in love with me. So, he swings from being super mean to practically idolizing me. It is hard to deal with to say the least. I put up with it because he was not like this before MS. He was my rock. Now he makes me crumble.
I don't talk about what I go through very often and if I do I only talk to one person or a therapist (I see a few times a year due to finances). So, I must say this has been a liberating experience. Thanks for givimg me a place to vent and share my life. It is very sad to hear other stories from people that are not happy with their life. But, this could be the tool to help us all, one way or another.
*In Seattle
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I wrote up above. My husband has MS and is abusive. I know what its like to be sad and depressed. However, as hard as it is I get up and go every day no matter how bad I want to stay in bed. I work two jobs (he has not worked in 11 years) and I excercise religiously. I could not be here without a release. I have chosen to be good to my body and help my mind as much as possible. I can't say that exercise solves my problems or erases my sadness, but it works wonders for my soul and helps keep me thinking as positive as I can.
I understand the woman above when she says that her spouse has been "good" for two weeks. My house runs like that. We live for the good days or weeks. Unfortunately, I have been doing this 11 years and they never last. But, I do live those moments to the fullest. However, my children don't remember the man I married. They only know the man he is today. They can't forgive or understand like I have conditioned myself to do. When my husband gets angry he doesnt have control over his actions; he slams doors, yells, swears, calls me names and the children hear him. He doesnt have the capacity to think before he speaks when he is enraged. He also doesn't care at the time if they hear. He also says mean things about them and sometimes to them. He acts crazy and totally out of control. He has been in counseling forever! We have tried couples counseling a little here and there. He also is totally in love with me. So, he swings from being super mean to practically idolizing me. It is hard to deal with to say the least. I put up with it because he was not like this before MS. He was my rock. Now he makes me crumble.
I don't talk about what I go through very often and if I do I only talk to one person or a therapist (I see a few times a year due to finances). So, I must say this has been a liberating experience. Thanks for givimg me a place to vent and share my life. It is very sad to hear other stories from people that are not happy with their life. But, this could be the tool to help us all, one way or another.
May 20, 2009 - 10:45am*In Seattle
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