God I thought I was alone. I've been reading all your comments and get it..
I've been married for 26 years., towards the last 5 years of our married it wasn't good.. we had drifted apart.. I have always loved my husband but felt left down.. I suppose if I'm honest I've always been the stronger out of the two.. the bread winner decision maker with the buck always stopping with me..
It's been hard and lonely with little or no support.. Then just as I was deciding that it was time to make a split.. He gets ill.. first with a diagnoses of heart disease and then without much improvement to his health a diagnoses with MSA.. an awful condition that strips you of all mobility and continance and eventually speech .. life expectancy is 5 to 7 years.. of major dependency..
All affection from my husband stopped a couple of years back.. we don't even share the same bed as he suffers with nightmares..
I spend night after night on my own and day in day out working to provide for us.. it's very hard and very lonely.. I have completely sacrificed my happiness to keep my husband comfortable., I find my self sometimes thinking I hope this all ends soon.. So after years of raising family fighting to pay Bill's and run business on my own ...that my life before its too late may start for me... and then I feelmdreadful for thinkinb like that., when my poor husband didn't ask for any of his lot., I don't no what to do.
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God I thought I was alone. I've been reading all your comments and get it..
December 2, 2016 - 3:32pmI've been married for 26 years., towards the last 5 years of our married it wasn't good.. we had drifted apart.. I have always loved my husband but felt left down.. I suppose if I'm honest I've always been the stronger out of the two.. the bread winner decision maker with the buck always stopping with me..
It's been hard and lonely with little or no support.. Then just as I was deciding that it was time to make a split.. He gets ill.. first with a diagnoses of heart disease and then without much improvement to his health a diagnoses with MSA.. an awful condition that strips you of all mobility and continance and eventually speech .. life expectancy is 5 to 7 years.. of major dependency..
All affection from my husband stopped a couple of years back.. we don't even share the same bed as he suffers with nightmares..
I spend night after night on my own and day in day out working to provide for us.. it's very hard and very lonely.. I have completely sacrificed my happiness to keep my husband comfortable., I find my self sometimes thinking I hope this all ends soon.. So after years of raising family fighting to pay Bill's and run business on my own ...that my life before its too late may start for me... and then I feelmdreadful for thinkinb like that., when my poor husband didn't ask for any of his lot., I don't no what to do.
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