My girlfriend of 2 years has stage 4 cancer. She likely only has a few months left now, however since her diagnosis she has become progressively more abusive to me.
In any ordinary situation I have enough self respect that I'd have left after the first torrent of abuse. However, I stuck around because I figured it 'wasn't really her'. It's just a symptom of the stress she's under both emotionally and physically and she needs me now more than ever.
Now the abuse is constant and quite extreme. I'm at the end of my tether as far as 'being the good guy' and tolerating the abuse. I swallow my pride every day and try to make her feel loved as she throws hate back at me. Today, although I'm ashamed to admit it' I realised I want her to die soon so I can get on with my life. This is never a person I wanted to be. I think I'm better off leaving the relationship now (even with only a few months on the clock) than to become someone so jaded any cynical that I secretly hope for the death of someone I once loved. It's an awfully conflicting situation to be in.
I've read alot of the comments here. To all the people that feel conflicted leaving their partners. I understand. I stand by you and respect you decision whatever it may be. I don't think terminal illness makes abuse excusable. I wish you the best in future.
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My girlfriend of 2 years has stage 4 cancer. She likely only has a few months left now, however since her diagnosis she has become progressively more abusive to me.
In any ordinary situation I have enough self respect that I'd have left after the first torrent of abuse. However, I stuck around because I figured it 'wasn't really her'. It's just a symptom of the stress she's under both emotionally and physically and she needs me now more than ever.
Now the abuse is constant and quite extreme. I'm at the end of my tether as far as 'being the good guy' and tolerating the abuse. I swallow my pride every day and try to make her feel loved as she throws hate back at me. Today, although I'm ashamed to admit it' I realised I want her to die soon so I can get on with my life. This is never a person I wanted to be. I think I'm better off leaving the relationship now (even with only a few months on the clock) than to become someone so jaded any cynical that I secretly hope for the death of someone I once loved. It's an awfully conflicting situation to be in.
I've read alot of the comments here. To all the people that feel conflicted leaving their partners. I understand. I stand by you and respect you decision whatever it may be. I don't think terminal illness makes abuse excusable. I wish you the best in future.
October 26, 2016 - 10:26pmThis Comment
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