Reading your share was as if I was reading my own life story. I have exactly the same attitude. No biological clock, the pointless feeling if I am not busy trying to accomplish something or conquer the world and the overwhelming feeling that time to whipping by and one day, I will be old and wish I hadn't worked myself to insanity.
I am a proclaimed work-a-holic. I work full time and also work several jobs from home that mainly use so much brain power that I am exhausted by the end of the day where I lay down my head and don't wake up until the next morning. Just to do the same thing the next day.
I complain about it but I always seem to do it. In my mind, I am supposed to do something that is legendary...I am not sure what that is but I have so much energy to make something good happen. For an example, I always wanted to help children get out of poverty as they got older because I worked so hard in my life to get out of it instead of giving into the reality that poverty was going to be my life. I tried so hard and at this time, I can say I own my own home, have a Master's Degree, currently attending school for taxes and have a wonderful dog. Yes, I agree with the dog love. There is nothing like it, unconditional. The only difference with me is that I do not have a boyfriend. I was married once but he was killed in Iraq.
When you spoke about religion, again, I agree. I completely respect people's choices to pray and rejoice in a higher power, but I do not. I have a hard time believing in things I do not see, touch, feel, etc. It is just my choice and my beliefs. I don't think that is a bad thing, just opinion. I was too interested in evolution to understand religion. Hope my parents were happy spending money on 9 years of Catholic school education.
I had the opportunity to talk to a Great Aunt of mine that has a Doctorates Degree, never had children, currently single and also wants a meaning in life. I never felt like I was happy with my accomplishments in life and talked to her about her life. She actually had a college building named after her for her accomplishments in education before she retired and she also was not fulfilled. I think that is legendary to have a monument named after you and still, not happy.
I suffer everyday with this and don't have an answer but can definitely relate. There are two things that really make me happy everyday when I wake up. One thing is that I continue with my education because otherwise, I feel like I am getting dumber by the minute. Second, I exercise. As Todd said earlier, try Yoga. Since there is no greater power that we believe in, believing in yourself is a great tool. I find that Yoga is very relaxing for the mind and body. It is amazing how aware of yourself you can be. Try it and let me know.
I would love to hear from you again and share ideas. Let me know what you have tried.
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Reading your share was as if I was reading my own life story. I have exactly the same attitude. No biological clock, the pointless feeling if I am not busy trying to accomplish something or conquer the world and the overwhelming feeling that time to whipping by and one day, I will be old and wish I hadn't worked myself to insanity.
I am a proclaimed work-a-holic. I work full time and also work several jobs from home that mainly use so much brain power that I am exhausted by the end of the day where I lay down my head and don't wake up until the next morning. Just to do the same thing the next day.
I complain about it but I always seem to do it. In my mind, I am supposed to do something that is legendary...I am not sure what that is but I have so much energy to make something good happen. For an example, I always wanted to help children get out of poverty as they got older because I worked so hard in my life to get out of it instead of giving into the reality that poverty was going to be my life. I tried so hard and at this time, I can say I own my own home, have a Master's Degree, currently attending school for taxes and have a wonderful dog. Yes, I agree with the dog love. There is nothing like it, unconditional. The only difference with me is that I do not have a boyfriend. I was married once but he was killed in Iraq.
When you spoke about religion, again, I agree. I completely respect people's choices to pray and rejoice in a higher power, but I do not. I have a hard time believing in things I do not see, touch, feel, etc. It is just my choice and my beliefs. I don't think that is a bad thing, just opinion. I was too interested in evolution to understand religion. Hope my parents were happy spending money on 9 years of Catholic school education.
I had the opportunity to talk to a Great Aunt of mine that has a Doctorates Degree, never had children, currently single and also wants a meaning in life. I never felt like I was happy with my accomplishments in life and talked to her about her life. She actually had a college building named after her for her accomplishments in education before she retired and she also was not fulfilled. I think that is legendary to have a monument named after you and still, not happy.
I suffer everyday with this and don't have an answer but can definitely relate. There are two things that really make me happy everyday when I wake up. One thing is that I continue with my education because otherwise, I feel like I am getting dumber by the minute. Second, I exercise. As Todd said earlier, try Yoga. Since there is no greater power that we believe in, believing in yourself is a great tool. I find that Yoga is very relaxing for the mind and body. It is amazing how aware of yourself you can be. Try it and let me know.
I would love to hear from you again and share ideas. Let me know what you have tried.
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